ha! this is ironic. Gary, the guy I have been talking about is now commenting on my blog. Aparently I am good at telling tall tales...or making up stories I guess. you can read the true stories on his comments. sorry Gary....my information was from the horse----RUNAR! He likes to tell stories too...and stretch things. I guess I believe them. I will check my stories from now on. I receive this as a healthy correction in my blogging life. you know I desire to live righteously so it will start with my blog. i might actually start by telling what is happening in my life. i might begin by actually letting you know how hard it is to be here in YWAM Skien. I suppose it means I am going to let it on thick-----well at least as thick as it needs to be. truth hurts.....but truth changes things. anyway...back to Gary----great guy as I have said. really funny. and nosy (he found my blog out of all of them---what a crazy guy)
i've heard the cd as it has progressed to the mastering stage. it is good. there are some strange little details to work out. for example there was a violin part just plunked on to the end of one song....in which I did not play on in the live or the studio. they just took it and made it work. it sounds a bit wierd because I would not have actually played some of those things if I were playing for the song it was plunked onto. and there is one note that is just sour! oi. but it really sounds great overall. i just have to be honest about it. I think Gary is giving me a hard time because I gave him one. the whole process was fun, but there were some things that made it great. Gary was leading us in the studio recording with his hands...and big facial expressions and all. one time he and the other vocal lead went to the studio and I got to BE GARY! I was doing it like him...with the faces and the hands. Hope that didn't hurt your feelings Gary! It was fun to push the 'record' button on the keyboard. I was sitting in the pilot's chair for a little of one song. Anyway....i hope you can all forgive me for not researching my sources about Gary. I take full responsibility and I let my pride fall. I humble myself before the truth. I realize that I just did not know Gary like I could have. but......it's okay and grace is there for me and you! do you know Susan Ashton? is she a world renowned singer? guess who told me she was.....RUNAR! He is one tall tale himself.

i just experienced some amazing breakthrough here. this week is a special one. i am fasting for a specific reason and i am beginning to hear God's voice...seek Him and find Him again. it's good that the worship leader says that. what a tragedy to be any other way. oi. we are in a fight against the powers and principalities of darkness----not each other. sometimes I get the sense that people I know and love are falling between the cracks that are opening up around us. the cracks that are holding our foundations together. those cracks are swallowing up people here. things are getting messy---and beautiful. just like my boyfriend says: 'I'm not afraid of messy'. I think I challenge him in this area often. (if you are reading this: i miss you) He challenges me too. The more I realize that this battle is not about me...but it is about God and his desire to be worshiped through these people than I have to do everything with the Holy Spirit to see breakthrough. I have not felt the support of the base at all in what I am doing. some comments have come to me last year that spoiled me. I was not strong enough to deal with them and to combat. i just climbed in a hole and cried. and i started to ferment there. then I went to the school of worship and things got harder for me. i met my fears on the side of the road.....and they beat me up and left me to cry again. the road has been lonely. the road has been so hard!!! Tonight I finally got to share about this with my small group. I dont know why I have kept silent all this time. I think it is because i believed that people did not care. i was getting hurt because people were hurt. but.....listen---something is happening and it is messy. it might involve confrontation. it might involve people being honest and even angry. it might involve redemption. and it will involve righteousness and obedience. halleluiah! i'm just fed up with darkness. sick of it. the enemy is going to get it! oh yeah. The Holy Spirit....is in Skien! Amen.